And the ball is rolling!

I wanted to keep this journal going, mostly for me to be able to have a place to go to share our story as it unfolds. Our IVF is starting soon! I get my calendar next week, and get the shots and everything ordered so that we can get the process going! At first I was extremely scared, thinking of having to give myself shots and of the pain of everything was definately effecting me, especially my sleep! But now, I am feeling more peace, and more hope. I have accepted the fact that I have to do this to get our baby, and I would do anything that I had to do in order to get our baby. The past months have brought about sooo many feelings, I have felt empty as babies were born, and desperate as more and more friends kept finding out they were pregnant. It is hard not to doubt God and everything else when you feel like everyone is getting blessed with what you feel you can only dream of. But now, its OUR turn!! :) And I cant wait! Knowing that the IVF is going to be happening in the next few weeks gives me so much hope, but also a lot of fear, as there is a 50% chance it will work, and 50% chance it will not. I pray that we have a lot of eggs that fertilize so that even if this cycle fails, we will have eggs ready to try another cycle quickly. I know that we will be parents, and I hope it is next month!! Who knows, we may even have twins, they do put two eggs in at a time!! I want to thank everyone who helped us out financially, it meant sooo much to me that so many people were willing to sacrifice of their finances for us, I cannot even explain how much it meant to me and will always mean to me! We still need to come up with 400 to 500 more dollars, so if anyone else wants to help us out, you can still scroll down to the first entry and the donate link is still attached. We are getting there though, dollar by dollar!! Also, thanks for all of the prayers, keep them coming!! As I start shots, we dont know what my hormones or pain tolerance will be, so it could be a fun month, haha. Pray for Tim as he has to help administer the shots and deal with my emotions. And although it is a weird thing to pray for, pray that I can produce lots of eggs!! This are my prayers, and I would love for people to pray along with us. Anyways, I will continue to update our journal as the process continues!